The Diary of the Confused One

Do you have a dream? Do you see  your future self working in your dream job, living in your dream house or even dating your dream guy? As I remember, When we were young we used to dream a lot, we used to have a lot of ambition that we want for our future, we used to say “when I grow up I want to be this .. I want to be that “  so  we were looking forward to our bright future but when we were slowly growing up, we suddenly got confused to the idea of what do we truly want to become for our future?

What if you are one of those people that doesn’t know their dream? People, that struggle to find what you truly want to become? Because you can't decide on your own future, parents can easily dictate what do you have to do. Some people impulsively took their course for their bachelor's degree due to their parent's wish, parents want them to be like them or to continue their family legacy. Some people just took it impulsively as if they have no choice or for thinking of “if I took it maybe later I will be used to it and will love it back and be it for my future” but at the end, you still felt the unhappiness deep down to your heart.

At the end of the day, we will be thinking of “do I really have a dream? Do I really have a future waiting for me? Or should I believe to them that I am truly a waste, stupid, trash, immature or a lazy fool that doesn’t know  how to appreciate things from their parents saying that they really regretting  me being born in this world or in short they take me as a freeloader and even companies cant saw my worth. Let me tell you something, even though we were confused to what do we really want to become we were definitely not what you were thinking of, so I am hoping that you cant be so insensitive towards us, don’t spout too much nonsense that can affect our emotional calamity. 

It was normal to be confused, so don’t let them belittle you, don’t let them say that you are trash. Just remember, even though the whole world abandoned you, God will never leave you and I also be here not physically but silently praying for your good future and we the confused one needed to help each other by supporting and motivating us that we can do it, we just need to believe. 

Love,

Ms. E